The Life Of A Typical Teenage Gal

Have you ever thought of how to live your young life?
Or just go with the flow to what to do or what to achieve?
We, at this age, we struggle,
Some of us; Being just to find what we want,
or else struggle with with what we lack for.

I for one,
unfortunately am one of those people,
who, I admit myself, ashamed of this behaviour,
because of this I forget and I neglect,
of what I have, of what I love,
of what I was made to do,
for God and for myself, my family and my friends.

I regret this feeling,
I want this behaviour to not pessess me,
to not take control of my life,
to not hurt my friends,
to not hurt God,
of all that I do.

As soon as a second that passes by,
I will be looking back,
Thinking ,what did I do wrong?
what did I lack of?
why do I feel regretful, ungrateful of myself?
I want to go back to tie those loose ends,
to make everyone not care about me that much because I feel,
I don't deserve their love,
especially from all my friends.

I do not want them to misunderstand,
that I want to shun them away,
it is Never like that,
I feel that I care too much of what I want,
of not what I have,
everytime they care for me,
I count each and and everyone of them,
of how to pay them back,
of how to love them back,
But I burden them with my problems instead,
and for that I get one my knees,
and I say I am sorry!

I am sorry for my temper, my rudeness,
my selfish feelings,
I am sorry for all I have done wrong to ALL of you,
I hope you will forgive me.
I am sorry to God,
for swearing, for yelling, for this and for that,
I am sorry for everything,
I am so sorry!
I love you guys!
All of you!