Monday, June 29, 2009

wadda ya think? shud i continue?

hey buds! err can I ask you guys/gals a favor? I created something of what might become a complete story IF you people think it's worth it.....well here it is....enojoy^^
PS: it's not a middle part...read the end...

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Those eyes, they scare me. That’s all I can see. I have no idea why I’m transfixed to those blood-shot eyes. The slit-like pupils are the only thing that are capable to control me at this very moment; I feel pressure…It’s choking me.
I try to make out my surroundings. There is absolutely untainted blackness. Everywhere I look; those transfixed eyes seem to float in the darkness.

I feel something….
I can’t move my body; I feel an ice-piercing touch trickling down my neck. Those slits got me hypnotized.
The feeling is strong now, the sensation is burning me. Whatever it is, it’s trying to penetrate my bare neck, injecting, piercing through.
I feel numb; paralyzed.
Oh God! Please help me!

The slit-like eyes are getting vicious now. Its redness is getting impossibly darker. But….this aura, this entrance—is leaving me helpless. I choke…I can feel it piercing, seeping through my skin now. The pain is coming…

Those eyes turn into a cocky position as they continue glaring at me; as if….it grinned.I can feel –no—I can taste, a very bitter mixture…an acid…I can taste poison. So that’s what they injected.
My throat burns like crazy. The poison is gaining control; an effect that is swimming down my bloodstream. What I fear is my absolute prediction.
Those cynical eyes, the slits are getting thinner and thinner, impossibly thin for a pupil, even for a cat that has those features. They look and glower at me; bloodshot and blood thirsty. What does it want? What is it doing to me?
I’m dying, that’s a definite solution. Suffocating and poison are my autopsies when they find out I’m dead…

Huh.
IF anyone finds out I’m dead.I’m gasping for air now. It’s like the poison is made of rock; trying to block my lungs from breathing.I scream; or at least…I try to. It’s no surprise nothing came out of me. The only consolation I’m getting right now is those slit-like eyes are starting to fade away. The darkness surrounding it seems to try its best to consume it whole; or maybe it’s just me going into unconsciousness.

I feel cold suddenly. It’s ironic of what I’m feeling like Antarctica here, nevertheless I couldn’t feel my whole self.
Oh the pain! It’s unbearable, an addition to my sensations.
A thousand stabbing knives at my back as they always say. But this time, it’s at my throat, my lungs, my chest, my heart…It’s no good functioning them now. Their purposes are over.

As I entered unconsciousness, I feel a bump; and all the air I literally had left was knocked out of me.

Just then, the silence that I disregarded broke….
A gurgling, horrific scream broke the chain of silence….
More to my surprise…..It was me….
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I got up from my bed….okay…or maybe it WAS my bed. I found myself lying on the floor, my blanket practically almost torn in half because of my unbearably strong grip to my once-was-in-one- piece blanket, while experiencing my vision asleep.

Beads of sweat are trickling down my forehead. Weirdly my throat still burned from what I called a déjà vu nightmare; as so to say this dream has been coming and going for a month now.
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I looked at my mini mirror at the corner of my room, yes; my neck was covered with marks of what looked like punctured holes that were covered up for a nice faked up alibi. What looked like chicken- pock marks now formed a rarely distorted shape; an eye. I squinted closer. It looked like a weak sketch; a faded one. I brushed my fingertip against the puncture, it burned; peculiarly only when it has been touched. The more I stroked the wound, the more the shape became visible. Whatever this sadistic nightmare had in stored for me--of all that I had suffered this month from it--I think I might have gotten myself into a horror labyrinth; and I am convinced things are going to get worse.
Sleep to me now is becoming a suicidal act; but an act I could not ignore each night as I shut my eyes into a fatal slumber.

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so? how's it? hoped you enjoyed it...c ya guys/gals! God bless..
PS: leave comments at c-box...negative statements are fine...^^ (just don't make it too harsh)

Saturday, June 27, 2009

Friends....condolences...love

hey guys, haha sorry bout my emoness the other day, seriously I'm lamely obsessed with stuff that I think I'm having second thoughts bout loving myself XD (if ya get the flow)

well not much had happen parents-teachers day went on today and yea....same ol' same ol'...
just parents getting on with teachers, teachers getting on with parents and students trying to relate the both =.=

Well ahh err for me? hehe, ya DON'T wanna know what happened....utterly awkward for myself, *and yes I WILL get a nice chit-chat with dad who started all this* (pss: if ya wanna know please ask me/or guess coz some of you may get what reaction took over me when I was with my parents and my class teacher....seriously total embarassment..


so ah yes the title, friends, condolences and love...any relation? well yea, it's really nice having friends you love there for you....although you take it too much for granted that may jeapordise *forgive my spelling* that realationship....it's nice to know they're always there...so yar, I'll take this moment to say sorry I've been acting this way for the week or so....I have my probs and I tell you it's NOBODY'S fault k? just for the record...

I'll try to act err more bunnyfullycandyly like XD anyways I don't know bout next week coz I'm trying to keep myself busy to get my sluggish mind off some stuff....and again NO ones fault..

condolences? to the king of pop....michael jackson....moment of silence...

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ok....sorry haha...I don't really know if you guys like him or not but c'mon...it's like losing elvis presley here....(ok maybe something less err bombastic?) but yea it's true...and I'm Proud to say I am/was a fan...sigh....sad news leh...

soooo that's all for the week...I got a line of things going on to keep me busy so that's a good thing...so wat's up with you guys/gals? checkin your blogs people..

Have a great life, God bless and sorry again for getting everyone so upset over the emo-ness...=)


PSS: through the 1st song be patient kay? pause the vid for 30secs and then you can indulge the whole clip...It's very meaningful...especially the last/half part. Make sure your there at the vid to watch it. If your to Busy then fast forward ^^ ( "TO WHERE WOMAN??" lolx estimate to the 3/4th of vid..I'm not forcing...just giving something to you guys/gals)
thanks to the person who introduced and got me addicted YOU know who you are....and still waiting =.= haha
biieess ....love yall

Sunday, June 21, 2009

*sings=I'm not missing you~* aw cut the craP! I'm devastated....

ooookay.....gotta breathe gotta breathe...


in...out...in..out....INNN....*choke**COUGH* ....*wheezz....* to much *cough* air...
sigh....why am I like this? gals you tell me...jeez haha well so far my life HAS been normal (so to say) haha XD


just missing a person (2 actually) sucks....alot! It's like you have one to suffer...then the other part of your life goes too =( *sigh*

okay the 2 people??
(a) **************** most people know I guess...anyways YOU know who you are XD/=(
(b) my Dad =( which I didn't get to spend Father's Day with...that sucks...(he's in Japan/going to Korea)




so err yea...these two people...hahas..I hope they come back soon...dad coming home 1st so yea....the other 1 I'm missing will be longer trip. hold up....*picks up phone*

(5 minutes later)

my gosh.....my dad..is having flu.*he called* Oh mygosh. when he gets back we gotta go bring him go to see a doctor...(H1N1....hope not....gosh PRAY not)
please pray guys....gosh I hope *fine*.. HE is safe.....and his family too...=(
please pray for dad guys...I'm getting nerved wrecked again....*sigh* I want them both to be here soon..
two parts of my life like gone only...
hope my dad is ok in Japan
hope he's ok in.....wherever he is...(I can't give out that info that much.... can I?)


well, that's all I have for now...I'm crying my heart out....again.....which I'm ganna bare the swollen eyes the next day.....*again* *Sigh* guys a lil help?

oh yea...ps: whatever you got for midterms.....embrace it...good or bad you still have finals....and form 3-5/6 to go....okay guys? (read hwu ning's pm) and no I'm not saying this coz it's easy for me or stuff like that...I care bout you guys.....sorry I didn't help much..

anyways...still crying...so yea I'll stop here...to the peeps out there I miss, I love you both.....
and I love you me pals too...cheer up kay? sorry I'm wi=riting like this....I'm a lil you know

bye, God bless




Saturday, June 13, 2009

tagged by Edrick ^^ (i can't believe I'm saying this but if not for him I have no idea what to put on me blog o.o)

1 . What have you been doing recently?
making a song, breathing and missing alot of people...

2 . Do you ever turn your handphone off?
never...lol I'm afraid I'll miss a call o sumthing...(yea although if it's 3 in the mornin..*which caused me eye bags later =.=*)

3 . What happened at 10am today?
half sleeping, half thinking (yea i know weird hehe)

4 . When did you last cry?
last week I think (don't ask me why, i got over it ^^)

5 . Believe in Fate/Destiny?
yup..It happen to me so, ya get it..

6 . What do you want in life now?
just God's, Family's and friends' forgiveness(es)...I have done wrong(s) so guys?*God* forgive me

7 . Do you carry an umbrella when it rains or just put up your hood?
It depends....If i wanna commit suicide and get struck by lightning then no, I'll dance in the rain and just get on fire(litterally) ;p

8. What's your favourite thing to do on bed ?
what else? sleep? lol yea and think...and read...*what else do you do on bed o.o*(don't think otherwise missy)

9. What bottoms are you wearing now?
err...yellow tracksuit? *do you need inside info too?? 0.0*

10 . What are the nicest things in your inbox?
mmm lots ^^ get's me butterflies in stomach (so to speak) so it's....sorry can't tell you. =) *private*

11 . Do you tend to make relationships complicated?
errr excuse me? who in the world would wanna do that? It's illogical (in other words plain stupid)

12 . Are you wearing anything borrowed from anyone?
err no?

13 . What was the last movie you caught?
monster's vs aliens-3D (lol! I have learnt 1 thing...to make peace with aliens ya have ta play crazy frog's songs on tecno XD)

14 . What are you proud of ?
Being a catholic/christian!!

15. What does the oldest text msg in your inbox says and who is it fr0m?
I wish to tell you but that's private as well....from an old err friend? (ATENZION! sms'es are private kekeke)

16 . What was the last song you sang out loud?
~that's what you get for wakin' up in vegas!~ lol..(what happen's in vegas, stays in vegas...remember that kids XD)

17 . Do you have any nicknames?
Yea....alot...especially made from kazuki...candle, candy...can dance.*jeez* and most of all candace cheah leng hon.(sry if mispell stan)/ and yes i'm ganna kill kaz...

18 . What does the newest text msg says and who is it from?
refer to no. 15's warning...tq

19 . What time did you go to sleep last night?
4am! lol...checked out an 11.20pm movie kekeke

20 . Are you currently happy?
ecstatic!

21 . Who gives you the best advice?
Of corze God, Mom, Jess, Kiki, Brandon...who else? err mama mary?

22 . Do you eat whipped cream straight from the can?
1) I dunno what is whipped cream out of can
2) although I've known, I'd never do it unless i'm emo-tic...
3) I'll spit it out anyway coz i hate cream! XD

23 . Who do you talked to on phone last night?
My cuz..and sum1 else lolx..

24 . Is something bugging you right now?
yea.....my annoying dog scratching my hand coz it wants to bite it...(what does she think of me hand? rubber ducky???)

5 . Who is the last person to make you laugh?
monsters from monsters vs. aliens movie lol...adorable and funny (I won't call them people though)

26.Do you like yourself?
I guess....but not my attitude sometimes...

27.You want $5 or $10?
hmmmm $5 o $10, $5 o $10....GAH I'll take both...haha(now to buy some "stuff")

28.Do you think you are stupid sometimes?
Yea..Uhuh...blur case dreamy and dumb lolx

29.Who is your best best best friend?
lolx I move alot so I only have close friends...(you know who you are)

30.What will you do if you like that boy?
what else? become friends lar...lolx..i dont flirt....if I do I'll suck at it anyway

31.Who are your favourite stars?
lots lar.....definitely NOT angelina jolie...

32.You hate your mother sometimes in some ways?
I hate to admit it but yea sometimes....but she's still my mommy, I love her =)

33.Do you had even stead before?
*checks dictionary*(what the heck is ste....oh!!) I guess lol i'm not that stable though kekeke

34.What type of boy do you like?
lol hmm someone nice, always there, down to earth (I have one very good example ^^)

35.Now are you single/attached?
errr....ummmm....ah.....attached??? *nervous laugh*


Pass this tag to 10 people !
1.jessica
2.Andrew
3.su-lise (go update)
4.kiki =)
5. wei bin
6.eleena
7.veron ^^
8.stanley
9.Brandon (go update)
10. fishiieee!! lol

1. Would you date number 5?
=.= what do you think.....

2. Number 2 just got in a car crash. How do you react?
nah....he won't get hurt....he got his own safety gears adi..haha

3. You see number 9 with your boy/girlfriend. What do you do?
what the....err....how am I suppose to put this...*complicated question*(you don't wanna know)

4. You come home and your room has been ransacked by number 4.
she will never do that! (she's mature enough) even if she did I think she just want my dog or something...

5. Number 1 is acting weird.
hmmm....I know why....

6. Numbers 3 and 8 decide to give 10 a haircut.
holy mollie!! that I gotta see...*takes camera* lol jkjk....

7. Number 7 just got tickets for him/her and ask you to go to a concert.
count me in!!

8. Number 10 takes you to a bar.
I'm sorry dude but we're too young...lol...just call me when you gotta head home...i'll fetch ya...(since your ganna get "high and mighty")

9. Number 4 has to move to the other side of the world.
If you EVA EVA go I'll go to the place and drag ya back if i had to! You are NOT leaving your mom here!! XD

10. You and number 8 are being chased by the cops for an unknown reason.
"HE DID IT! HE DID IT!!" I'm being held captive!! lolx!!

11. Number 5 asks you out to dinner.
err refer no. 1 lol...

12. Number 9 and you are sitting on a bus.
what to do? lol

13. Number 6 calls you in the middle of the night because he/she can't sleep.
cakap kosong je lar...

14. Your walking with someone and number 6 runs up and tackles you to the ground from behind.
hey! waddaya do that for?? I steel your bf o sumthing???

15. Number 1 is crying one day and you ask him/her why and it seems their boy/girlfriend has dumped them.
get me my gun....that guy's going down! *before that, comfort the dansel in distress =3*

16. Number 2 offers to bake you a meal. As you sit in the other room, the kitchen is suddenly aflame.
nah normal of him I guess.....I'll get the extinguisher...

17. Number 4 comes to your door one day holding a koala.
aww...that would be ADORABLE!!

18. Number 4 just got you an X-Box.
I love you!! lol is that my mother's day present???

19. Number 9 challenges you to a children's card game!
I'll lose for sure...he's good at gaming...*dang! I want a rematch! 50meters butterfly stroke! now! lolx*

20. Number 1 thinks he/she's overweight.
nah!! she's never overweight...I still don't get how she stays fit..

21. Number 7 looks lonely!
hey gurl wat's up??

22. Number 2 asks you rudely to go leave her/him alone.
he's never like that...he likes being surrounded by friends ^^

23. Numbers 5 and 3 decide to throw a surprise party for you
awww I love you people thank you!!

24. Number 6 decide to dye their hair black. What do you say to that?
err....gurl? your hair's already black,.....

25. Number 2 tells you he/she is going to go out for a while, and then later you hear about a shooting where 2 went.
oh jeez! 911!!

26. You catch number 9 by him/herself, crying.
aww....hey you alright? *hugs*

27. Numbers 1 , 3 , 5, and 6 all tackle you at once!
sweet mother of kitkat!! I'm dead!! *wait wait...let's settle this like civilised people....WHO WANTS A KITKAT!!* lol

Tuesday, June 9, 2009

tagged by....jessie! *on facebook* and recently by hwu ning

Secrets about yourself.
Be honest no matter what.
If I tag you, you have to do one!(refer to facebook)

1.) Have you ever been asked out?
yea....by frens?? lol

2.) Where was your default picture taken?
camera? lol

3.) What's your middle name?
err cheah or sook....not sure lol!*dunno,dun care, dun ever wanna care*

4.) Your current relationship status?
err...taken?...*nervous laugh* *who noes??*

5.) Does your crush like you back?
mmmm...you noe....^^

6.) What is your current mood?
dizzy...happy...restless

7.) What color of underwear are you wearing?
err...do I have ta??(it's not like your ganna immitate me or something....are you???o.o)

8.) What color shirt are you wearing?
orange

9.) Missing something?
yup...."some things" lol!

10.) If you could go back in time and change something, what would you do?
change myself and watevr i have done wrong to any1..

11.) If you must be an animal for one day, what will it be?i
t'll be nice to be err black panther i guess...

12.) Ever had a near death experience?
yea lots...fell from a bunk bed(top), cracked my skull and almost got hit by a bus and motorbike!^^
13.) Something you do a lot?
daydream...

14.) The song stuck in your head?
can't tell it's flashing every minute..

15.) Who did you copy and paste this from?
JESIIEE PANG! ^^

16.) Name someone with the same birthday as you?
err NO IDEA....*knocks* God?help me out here?

17.) When was the last time you cried?
last nite....11 sumtin pm...lol *thx to the person who cheered me up ^^)

18.) Have you ever sung in front of a large audience?
yea...evry christmas(choir) *shudders* but it's fun

19.) If you could have one super power what would it be?
make people happy in a sec i guess =3

20.) What's the first thing you notice about the opposite sex?
their...err personality?

21.) What do you usually order from starbucks?
MMMM....their cappocino/decafe and sweet bun! ^^

22.) What's your biggest secret?
why wud I tell my secret if it's a secret?(check d dictionary 4 the word "secret" pls?) =)

23.) Favorite colour?
Black,shades of sunset, baby blue...

24.) Do you still watch kiddie movies or tv shows?
mmmm dun think so? (blame the loss of disney,nickelodeon and cartoon network....=[ )

25.) What's on your walls?
which wall r u talkin bout? *my tv, rosary,picture of the immaculate heart of Mary*

26.) What are you?
i'm a...homo sapien! lol

27.) Do you speak any other language?
Sí ^^

28.) What's your favorite smell?
mum's home food and another 1 tht...shhhh! lol

29.) Describe your life in one word.
settled(for now)

30.) Have you ever kissed in the rain?
mmmm that wud be nice, *daydream*.

31.) What are you thinking about right now?
life...

33.) What should you be doing?
practicing my guitar, breathing and NOT killing myself..(on the contrary) lol!

34.) Who was the last person that made you upset/angry?
not sure...lol (4giv and 4get!)

35.) How often do u talk to God?
alot lol! He's always der..

36.) Do you like working in the yard?
err lol I dun have a yard..lol condo gal ^^

37.) If you could have any last name in the world, what would you want?
hmmm *blank with monkey in head*

38.) do you act differently around the person you like?
maybe...lil...I dunno...lol *nervous laugh, again*

39.) what is your natural hair color?
brown...*if in the sun*

40.) who was the last person to make you cry?
refer to no.34 ^^


others good luck! ('' ,)

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